That was one of the lamest short stories I have ever read. The title, however, I find that I quite like it, so MEH.

Recently, despite the fact that I have to keep asking Siji for permission to do ANYTHING, I've been writing and drawing a lot. Maybe once I've got limits I express myself better?

Anyway, despite any phsycological traumas with me and limits, it's quite true that I have been doing a lot of ART recently. No just any kind of art, but especially focused on a genre.

My drawings are focused lately on the bizarre. I've found a new love for the wicked and the weird and the freaky. On a whole new level from before. Now, I truly consider Tim Burton an Artist with capital A instead of a really good cartoonist. His gore-filled drawings and ideas and style are all so fascinating, especially when you consider the possibilities of every little detail having a meaning of it's own. I do that quite often when I'm readin now thanks to my IB education, but I've actually started to do it with art too. Of course, often enough I'm too lazy or I don't find something interesting enough to analyze to I just discard it and move on but... yeah. Recently, I'm all for drawing the human body at a raw level: bones, muscles, organs, BLOOOOOOD.

All of it, and I have no idea why.

Sure, the occasional funny or romantic or stupid drawing pops up now and then when I'm thinking about something, but only when it's a single, specific thought. Otherwise, I'm sketching something from Alice in Wonderland done with overthetop gore.

I actually drew a female Tweedledee and Tweedledum with sewn mouthes, bandages and blood splatters.

Ah, hurray for turning an innocent book into something far more sinister, though Alice's Adventuresin Wonderland along with the book Through the Looking-Glass can both be interpreted as such... Wow, what an evil pair of books. Written, of course, by a guy who was an expert mathematician. Give three cheers for IRONY!

I love Charles Lutwidge Dodgson(better known as Lewis Caroll), though, so don't badmouth him either.

Anyway, I am working on my BEST drawing yet inspired by the drawing I made of three people (girls, I guess, but I think it's best to say they're mannequins) wearing masks that personafy the lies they use to hide their faces.

The last and the one wearing the darkest colors (the darker their clothes, the thicker the lies) has the most bizarre outfit I've ever made, which isn't much compared to some, but I try. Anyway, I decided that she would be covered from head to toe in clothing, whether it's bandages covering the face beneath the mask, fishnet shirt and gloves to fully enclose everything beneath her other blouses, and even super long stripes pants (horizontal lines, which happen to look really creepy!).

I LOVED IT!

One day I shall dress like that, I vow here and now. Seriously.

Anyway, then I drew her, just without her clothes and 'wig' she wears. XD I'll post it as soon as I'm done, thought it'll take some time to fully ink they way I want to, but it's just too fuuuuun! I'm gonna show Cherry to see what she thinks later (yes, you're the lucky victim, my love) and she will tell me if it's weird enough to suit my tastes.

Yay!

On quite the contrary my writing has been focused on the more... romantic side. Oddly enough, I've been hit by cupid to write some of the best love stories I could come up with. XD I have a special fondness for writing cutetsy, funny-love sotries, but this inspiration train hit me hard enough to actually give me some pretty good ideas.

Most of them focused on Forbidden Love.

Heeheehee!!!

I have a certain attachment, I don't know why, to that kind of Love. The kind between princes and pagans, between students and teachers, between married woman and single men (though not much for this one, I like it when the woman chooses her hubby anyway X3), between someone who shouldn't love and someone who loves too much, yaddah yaddah.

Maybe there's a little romance-lover in me that finds all of this very attractive, but I like it anyway. Though for most of the 'older than thou' kinds of love, I don't like it when the age difference passes ten or fourteen. I mean, yeah, between six to nine years of difference between lovers is fine because you were born close enough that you're at least a decade or so apart. But if one of them has already hit puberty by the time the other one is JUST A NEWBORN BABY... That seems kinda... sick. Dating somebody who was already an adult before you could even say your first words...

Ik.

That's my point of view, anyway. My mother's parents are seven years apart, and they're happily married, which is why I don't mind the large ten year age difference, but a twenty year difference is a bit much.

Anyway, my FAVORITE kind of love though is the adventurous one. You know, the one where new things never die. Where you're always discovering something, up to something, DOING something. Where the guy and girl struggle to find their meeting point and keep struggling to keep it there, you know?

I hate it when people FINALLY get together after a long 'ligue' point, with both of them doing their best to stay away or get together, and once they're together, BAM!!! The hardships, the surprises, the intense need, the LOVE just dies. It's like, you're together now... yay.

Dude!

Oh, yeah, we're in loveeeee, w00t w00t. SOOOOO??? Why did you try to hard if only to fall into the typical routine?! Why did you make up so many rounds, routes, twists and turns to get there, but once you arrive, you don't even try to even remember my name?!

I seriously hate that. I hate it when people live it, talk about it, write it, read it, or when guys DARE want to do that sort of thing to me.

It's like, I fell in love with the way you ran mental circles round me and made me think, pause, reflect, inspect. The way you were so creative, so interesting, so new...

Then you turn out to be a typical, NORMAL guy.

HEEEEEEELL NO.

Yeah, that's my own personal nightmare. XD Thank the Gods, though, I only fall for the really wild ones. X3

And that's how my Artsy self is doing. XD Torn between gore and romance... maybe I should mix 'em up..?

Handing over a realialistic heart while looking ever so innocent, chest all bloodied... or maybe write a story about a massacre that ends in a double suicide...

DELISH!!!!

Anyway, going back to the title of this dumb journal... I... am still text messaging with Siji. XD

Yes, it's true, I'm sorry. I just can't help it. We always end up talking from the moment he answers me or I answer him at about four or five pm, and it goes on from there until well into one or two in the morning. X3 Turns out I only stay up to talk to him, and not do my homework.

My mother would kill me. XD (She seems to have gotten into her head that these innocent messages could evolve into something MOOOOORE. Apparently, she thinks me to be as dull as a bucket of rocks or something. If I had wanted something with Siji, I wouldn't be in Kung-Fu, where any sort of relationship would get him fired and my ass cooked... eek, an example of Forbidden Love! XD Anyway, she's angry at me cuz she wants me to marry this other super gorgeous guy whose mother also happens to be all in for the idea. Scheming bitches... I love you, mama, but mind your own beeswax.)

So, yeah. Even now we're still texting. =.= He's gotten into an argument with me about religion and whatnot. XD He doesn't believe in God, but thinks there's a slight possibility that a higher power exists (and finds La Santísima Muerte a believable religious figure). In other words, he's agnostic. XD

Said he didn't know such beliefs even had a name. XD I laugh my ass off because we keep teaching one another new things all of the time. Last Friday, I didn't know what GRILLA meant. Turns out it's when someone's talking VERY good about you, you know. Tooting your horn and all that jazz.

I knew what ECHANDO CARRO meant, which obviously means throwing cars around. (Haha, just kidding, it means teasing.) And he uses more idioms in Spanish than I can COUNT. It's hilarious because now I'm starting to put them to use. XD

He, on the other hand, started to actually fall asleep extremely quickly, just like how I do it when I'm tired. X3 Apparently, we're starting to share more than a couple of hours together every week. Heeheehee!!!

Hm... speaking of which... I miss my History teacher. She was a bitch, and I hated her, but she was really good at making things interesting. Our new teacher is still kind of testing the waters a bit, but he's a fun guy. The kind of adult who likes comics and knows a thing or two about modern music. Coolies! XD

Uh, I have to go take a shower. XD Night night, all!! Be on the look out for the next romance one-shot, because I just finished it. I need to edit it and make sure I made no mistakes, but it is DONE!

You're all doomed.